Midlife Ennui: When Life Feels “Fine”… but You Don’t
Reclaim authorship of your life in midlife
Does your life feel beige? Mine did, a couple of years ago.
I didn’t know it then but this state of “beigeness” has a name: Midlife Ennui. I like this expression. I find it elegant, for some reason. And very relatable.
It hits a nerve that many of us in our 40s, 50s, and 60s feel but don’t always name.
It’s not burnout. It’s not quite depression. Not boredom either. It’s a deeper existential weariness, a sense that life is fine, but not as fulfilling as it could be.
A quiet questioning of what now?
You go to work, pay your bills, meet the deadlines, nod at the neighbours, maybe even book that holiday in Greece and buy the expensive smartphone. But somewhere, somehow, a thought creeps in: Is this it?
You’re not unhappy, exactly. Just unlit. Many of us have been there or will be at some point.
If this sounds familiar, you may be experiencing something rarely discussed but deeply felt by many in midlife: ennui — a kind of weariness that whispers, There must be more to this.
Not the loud midlife crisis of red sports cars and dramatic reinventions. No, this is more subtle. And, in some ways, more insidious. Because it’s easy to dismiss.
Especially if you’ve always had it together, been grounded, very grown-up, seemingly accomplished.
What Exactly Is Midlife Ennui?
The word ennui is French, but its roots go deeper. From the Latin in odio, meaning “in a state of weariness or loathing.” Today, psychologists use it to describe a low-level dissatisfaction that comes not from hardship, but from lack. Lack of novelty, meaning, inner alignment.
Unlike depression, which can flatten everything, ennui lets you function. But it numbs you, gently.
Studies have shown that across cultures, life satisfaction dips in midlife — often hitting a low between 45 and 55 years of age. That curve, often U-shaped, affects both men and women, but women often carry it more quietly, and more invisibly.
Why? Because for women, this period often coincides with:
Hormonal shifts
Empty nest syndrome
Caregiving shifting from children to parents
Career stagnation or plateau
Cultural invisibility
These are not minor changes. They can be tectonic. And yet the world often expects you to carry on as if nothing has shifted, especially not you.
The Brain on Midlife Ennui
Neuroscience adds another piece to the puzzle.
Midlife comes with a slow recalibration of dopamine. While dopamine naturally declines with age, the drop is particularly noticeable for women during menopause, when oestrogen, a key regulator of dopamine pathways, also begins to decline.
This means the things that once felt energising or rewarding, like career wins, social validation, even daily structure, may no longer register as deeply satisfying or even interesting.
Add to that the erosion of novelty and the sameness of routine, and you’ve got a perfect biological cocktail for restlessness, fatigue, or flatness.
It’s not that you’re failing to cope.
Your brain is asking for more stimulation, but of the right kind.
Midlife Ennui Is an Opportunity
What if we stopped seeing this foggy phase as a flaw — and started seeing it as a signal?
Ennui often shows up when your external life no longer matches your internal self. When you’ve outgrown old roles but haven’t yet written new ones.
In psychology, this phase corresponds to Erik Erikson’s stage of Generativity vs. Stagnation. It’s the time when we are meant to ask: How do I contribute now? How do I express what I’ve lived, and what I know?
If the first half of life was about accumulation, of knowledge, status, family, structure, the second half invites integration and expression. Not just doing more, but becoming more of who you truly are.
Midlife ennui isn’t an end. It’s a threshold.
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